He felt bored and wished someone would fix it.
The beach sounded better,
A little house with seashells and lapping waves,
That’s a fix for a moment...
But where’s the money and who is gonna give it
He thought this and wondered if the girl next door
Wanted to come and hide for awhile
The vagueness of his existence
Worried him and made him peer over his text
With reckless abandon, hoping for an answer.
But in it he just felt alone,
And unwanted,
And scared,
And no one understood.
When they did he guessed he couldn’t connect
The dots between them or be big enough
To take the chance in the first place.
Every night he was in the music
Leaning forward in his chair
He became depressed,
He lied to himself,
Stayed depressed and felt alone.
When someone said how bout something else
He said I don’t know how to get there.
He couldn’t get the courage.
He didn’t want to pay for his soul.
He didn’t want help.
He stayed alone.
When this is how it is
How does it change?
It could change
Somewhere there’s a change waiting
He wants to snap it up
But then he lays his head back down
And lets his vision get blurry
Maybe its time to sleep
Maybe he’s drinking too much
Maybe he says maybe cuz he doesn’t want to do anything but pout
He wants the girl but doesn’t know the steps
He never places himself out there
He becomes repressed
And looks to explode without survival
He wants this new him to die
And the old one to surface
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